Sunday, June 27, 2010

mY Au NT

They are eight sibling all together...
they have a good relationship...
they help each other...
they laugh together, cry together, scold each other BUT still smile back to each other at the end...
they are very kind..and they even don't know how to reject their friend or outsider when they get to ask to do something they are not willing to do unless is something that really not making sense only they will say NO...otherwise, they only will say "ok!"
they even don't know how to show and tell that they r not happy with the outsider...

The elder in this sibling is sister...she is a kind person which love by everyone without any reason...she's the one that always say "is ok lar.."or "never mind lar~"when someone did mistake..cause she don't like to make so many problem...she 's the one with her second sister who stop her mother to give away her forth sister..she's the one who work hard and look after all her sibling until she get married...now she got seven children and don't know how many grandchildren...^^

recently, she's lying at the hospital bed due to her son din notice her at the back of the car and bang her ...her sibling are tearing for her.. worried for her...but her children still smile n laugh..wondering??are they pretend to be strong or they are prepare for what are going to be happen or they have no feeling with what have going on on their mother??

that is not important...really hope that she is happy and satisfied with her life...
i heard from my mom said that now she is suffering in the hospital...many of them said there is no hope...BUT there is some saying that there is a hope...and doctor are silent and din tell anything...

i miss her...and i know tearing and praying cant help much...but i don't really hope to lost anyone of them anymore...wish to have a family gathering again...T___T


I LOVE THIS FAMILY...


Monday, June 14, 2010

-Sorry, Love Daddy by Brian Mcfadden-

It seems like only yesterday
I held you in my arms and said
You will never need to fear the dark
But unforeseen misery has come
Between your Mommy and me
And we can love you more, now we are apart

Daddy, he's got to go away
Coz there's just no other way
To live this through
Someday, you'll learn to understand
This wasn't what I planned, for me and you
Sorry, love Daddy

Everyday is filled with pain
But never feel that you're to blame
Sometimes life breaks, in mysterious ways
I can't make it up to you
Believe me I am trying to
No matter what you'll always be my babies

Friday, June 11, 2010

what?

im asking to myself too~~"whatz happen to myself?why so emo recenly?"

here the reason come when i close my eye...
i miss my family...coz im far apart from them...no one understand this feeling...some of them give the advice seem like their very understand the feeling...let me tell u..
"U R NOT AND U DONNO THE FEELING!!!"

i cry, i shout just because im tired with all this...
even my little sis also feel the same thing like me...we r lack of love...our daddy left a lot of empty space in our heart which suppose belong to him...

HONESTLY...no one can replace this empty place...really no one...even HIM...

i laugh, i smile BUT im empty...
BUT it's doesn't mean i give u a empty smile...
i din wish anyone to understand,BUT i wish there is a space for me to cool down my feeling...

im weird..
i don wan people care me so much coz i don use to talk much since that day...
i will only talk when i feel like talking...AND will talk much with u...^^

anyway,
stay strong!!