read only..but dont so ke po to separate ya~~~

i nvr believe tat i have been falling on u deep inside my heart...i don think this time i can just let u go so fast...

yesterday i go little genting...and i fall down at dy staircase...u know wat?i din feel shame...all because i suddenly think back wat i have done and my past r more "malu"...compare to this?this is nthg...just fall down at the staircase nia ma...is nthg...i also have tell u many time tat i love u and wanted to be ur gf too...am i brave or im stupid enough to do all this...many chinese ppl say"幸福是要自己争取回来的。。"but some say"幸福是不可以勉强的。。"wat should we do?which wan is right?tat why i choose to let u know my feeling and wat im thinking...but u choose to be silent...and u let me wait u like soh poh...guyz always like tat...nvr think of others ppl...i hate it!!!
i don even know wat r u thinking??i really tired to be waiting like this...

next...
as usual,i will call my mom when im free...and this time,i really getting mad with my 3rd aunt..she is too much!!!she is not helping my family!!but giving my family more and more trouble!!she purposely do something which will make mt sis and my mom to argue!!she is too much!!she really is a "HIPOKRIT"!!!
believe it!!she will get back wat she have done!!anything happen to my family,i will nvr let her go!!

1st day of my holiday....

hi hi!!
donno wat to talk...but still wan to talk...cause feel boring...l
ermmmm~~~let me think wat to talk...*thinking*
YES!!got it!!

i read my sis blog this morning...she talk bout her memory with my dad...
when i read,my tears drop non stop only...cry like donno wat...*miss my dad as well*...
at the same time,i wish tat im with my sis tat moment she miss my dad...so we can share alot of our feeling...donno why both of us love our dad so much...and both of us really got alot of memory with our dad...no matter how i love my dad,but i still love my mom...and even more now...cause i left her only in my life..no can talk,touch or make her emo...cause i will carzy if someone make her day bad..*love her so much*
now wat i wan is earn many many money to let her 享福...hehehhehe...

ok!!done!!letz talk other thing...

my aunt call me this morning...she hope that i can go back this holiday...cause they all miss me alot...i wish to go back too~~but i have promise them to stay..so~~wat to do?any idea?

hmmm~
没有家人的时候是这样的啦！！没有自己的意见，也不敢给什么意见。。。因为怕他们不开心。。我一点都不喜欢身边的人不开心。。。所以我每次都会离那些不开心的人远一点。。。因为我的情绪很容易被影响。。。

ok lar...the end....

feel goooooddddddd tonite....

now was 1 in the morning...i feel like talking in this blog suddenly...even i feel weak now...
im so happy and donno why im so happy...this morning,my ji mui donno talking wat and don wan to let me know...but i guest might is a planning for my birthday celebration...HAHAHA...cause my birthday is coming..IS NEXT MONTH!!!yuhuuuu....donno wat r they planning leh...now i know my ji mui is planning...how bout my cg?i don think they r planning...cause still far away...anyway,i din hope for anything...just hope they wont spend so much on me...cause they spend alot for past few month dy...what i really want from them is just a wish...i think tat is more than enough...of cause my birthday tat day i hope my lou dau can come celebrate my birthday for me too...like this year...
ermm~~~why suddenly din hope HE can come too leh?maybe he scary lor~~WAKAKAKAKA.....

fren,u all know wat?now Doreen is with me...she tot wan to study wit me...see see she nicely sleep with the book open pulak...swt!!tat why im writing this blog lor...*feel lagi swt!!*ermm~~~later only wake her up lar...

Aaaaarrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
HAVING EXAM NEXT WEEK!!!
now stress plus plus dy lor...T_T

ok lar...i think should end the story dy...
nite nite!!

to be continue.....

丢了翅膀，他仍是天使

dis is a long story.. bt it's really TOUCHING~!!! T_T

当在外地出差的我坐飞机赶回来时，十个月的儿子新新已经被推出抢救室。医生说持续的高烧也许损伤了脑神经，我要有心理准备接受可能的后遗症。 　　
老 公两天后才从国外回来。出院后，我们常常测试新新的听力和视觉，没有发现任何异常。我们终于放下忐忑的心。可渐渐地，我发现他开始瞪着无神的眼睛发呆，或 者呈现一种令我不安的笑容。当和新新一般大的孩子开始迈着步子，清脆地喊着爸爸妈妈的时候，新新依旧呆呆坐在那里，傻傻地笑着。抱着他四处求医，结论同出 一辙：新新的智力将会停留在幼儿期，除非发生奇迹。 　　
那是段痛不欲生的日子，抱着孩子寻找各种可能的奇迹，秘方、偏方，甚至针灸。那长长的针如同刺在我的心尖，汗和泪伴着孩子凄厉的哭声一起落下。我多么希望这只是一场梦，梦醒后充满灵气的新新在对我甜甜地笑。我开始幻听，总感觉新新在喊妈妈。 　　
我深深自责为了事业没有照顾好儿子，却不敢留在家里面对。每天下班后沉默地搂着他，日复一日，泪流尽了，心也似乎麻木了。老公也因为家里气氛沉闷，渐渐变得很少回家吃饭。 　　
婆婆来看我们，说把新新带走，让我们再要一个孩子。我不假思索断然拒绝，我不能那样做!他没有选择地来到这个世界，又因为我的疏忽变成这样，已经够不幸了!把新新紧紧搂在怀里，我不要别人分享对他的爱！ 　　

新新两周岁生日那天，我才惊觉老公已经不再陪我们一起吃饭了，怕失去他的恐慌开始噬咬着我，使我觉得难以呼吸。直至深夜，一身酒气踉踉跄跄的老公才踏进家门，我已经荒芜的泪水终于又奔涌出来。老婆，我们再要一个孩子好吗?我狠狠点着头，与他紧紧相拥，抵死缠绵……
我又怀孕了！抚着逐渐隆起的小腹，有些苦涩的甜蜜。我仿佛比谁都期待这个孩子，却又在内心里抗拒这个孩子。看到新新向我伸来的手臂，我的心又涌起巨大的痛楚：新新，这个世界，除了妈妈谁还能爱你! 　　
我终于下定决心打掉这个孩子，可检查结果使我震?

2002 年的夏天，一对漂亮的小女孩阳阳和月月降临了。满月以后，那对粉雕玉琢的小人，总是甜甜地笑，很少哭闹。只要我一说话，头就随着我的声音转，让我充分享受 到做妈妈的喜悦。我已经顾不上新新，无论我多么约束自己，潜意识里我已经开始忽略新新，只把他交给保姆，甚至开始讨厌他那傻傻的样子。 　　
转 眼，阳阳和月月会走了。新新一般不注意什么，只是对这两个妹妹格外敏感，常常注视她们的一举一动，似乎带着极大的兴趣，而且不同于平时的眼神。我是不允许 他接近她们的，他只能那样在一边望着，可我控制不住阳阳和月月蹒跚迈向新新的脚步，她们同样对新新表现出极大的兴趣。而我却舍不得强迫她们什么，只是一次 又一次严厉地对新新说，记住，不许碰妹妹!不许碰妹妹！渐渐地，他对我有了怯意，我却丝毫没觉得有何不妥。 　　

一天，孩子们在午睡，保 姆出去买菜，我去储物间整理衣物。突然听到孩子的哭声，我连忙跑进卧室，看到新新正从床的栏杆间缝向外拉月月的两根手指，手指被卡住，新新还在用力向外 拉。我一把拉过新新，照着他的手，狠狠拍打，不是告诉你不许碰妹妹，不许碰妹妹吗!看你以后还碰不碰妹妹!我越打越生气，似乎在发泄对他积累的厌恶。我疯 了似的寻找可以用来打他的东西，直到看见镜子里自己魔鬼一样的脸。我终于听到孩子们的哭声，终于看到蜷缩一团哭泣的新新，还有女儿们的喊叫声…… 　　

保 姆回来了，抱起新新，看着我余怒未消的脸想说什么，我摆摆手让她抱新新回自己的房间。我哄着阳阳和月月，突然看到床上有几块动物饼干，阳阳的手里还握着一 块要喂我。我连忙到月月那边，果然月月那边床下有几块饼干，已经被我踩碎了。新新最喜欢吃动物饼干，原来他拉妹妹的手是要给妹妹饼干。我的心被刺痛了，连 忙到他的房间，他已经被保姆哄睡了，可还在睡梦里抽搐着。我不禁泛起一阵酸楚，我这是怎么了?我还是他的妈妈吗' 　　

一天，我和女儿们 玩着拥抱的游戏。我拍拍手，她们就喊着妈妈，张着小胳膊争先恐后向我跑来，然后我们紧紧拥抱。这么简单的游戏，她们却乐此不疲，一遍又一遍。忽然，新新也 张开他的胳膊，向我跑来，含糊地说着，妈妈，妈妈。我简直不相信自己的耳朵!我的儿子，自从来到这个世界，从没开过口!紧紧搂住扑到怀里的新新，我哭了。 已经对他沉睡的母爱被重新唤起，儿子，妈妈有多久没搂过你，妈妈对不起你！ 　　

我终于开始认真思考我的孩子们，我有一个与众不同的家庭，我竟然有三个孩子！他们正渐渐长大，将来要有他们自己的人生。等我离开这个世界时，只有他们之间才能互相照顾。尤其新新，他需要好多好多的爱。 　　
我不再分隔他们，而是常常告诉女儿们，要好好爱哥哥，因为没有他，就没有她们。我知道她们听不懂，我只希望她们会记住我的话。 　　
我每天陪三个孩子做游戏，唱歌，跳舞，为他们讲故事。而新新，越来越有灵气，不但会叫爸爸、妹妹了，还会含糊表达自己的需要，而且会随着节奏跳些简单的舞步。看着并成一排熟睡中的孩子们，我终于相信这个世界上有奇迹，那就是爱，爱可以创造一切！ 　　

阳阳和月月到了上幼儿园的年龄，我也该上班了。为了减少我的负担，婆婆来商量着把新新接走。我犹豫再三，其实按新新现在的情况，勉强可以上幼儿园，可他毕竟和别的孩子不一样，我害怕来自外界给他的伤害。 　　
新 新被带走的那个晚上，女儿们不肯上床睡觉，一定要等哥哥回来。她们闪着漂亮的大眼睛问我，哥哥什么时候回来?为什么哥哥不上幼儿园?我的心一凛，回答她 们，哥哥生病了，要好长时间才会好。她们又问。他会想我们的，为什么我们不照顾他呢?快让哥哥回来，我们会照顾他的。我的心紧了又紧，你们要乖乖的，只要 你们听话，哥哥就会回来。她们终于乖乖睡下，而我在黑夜里挂念着新新。儿子，你好吗？ 　　
女儿们只去了三天幼儿园，就说什么也不肯去了，告诉我 幼儿园里有好多好玩的玩具，还有好多的小朋友，还学习新歌，认字，英语，她们要等哥哥回来一起去。她们充满期盼的眼睛望着我，还带有小小的挑衅。我讶于她 们的执拗，耐着性子哄着她们，可她们却怎么也不肯答应。我沉下脸一手抱着一个，她们哇哇哭起来，妈妈骗人，说只要我们乖，哥哥就会回来，我们都听话了，可 哥哥还是没有回来! 　　
我的心猛地僵住了!压抑的眼泪再也控制不住，你们的哥哥，他和别人不一样，他永远学不会那些东西!女儿们为我擦着泪，会 的，会的，妈妈，哥哥能学会的，我们会帮助他的!看着她们，我感到了做妈妈的歉疚，我只会一味逃避，以为自己很爱新新，却不如孩子们充满信心去面对。 　　门铃响，竟然是婆婆送新新回来了!几天不见，新新瘦了好多。婆婆无奈地说，这几天新新几乎没吃东西，也不肯睡觉，只一直哭，喊着妹妹，妹妹。她看了心 里实在难受，不得已就送回来了。 　　女儿们兴奋起来，拉着新新的手，开始讲幼儿园的事情，还催促我为新新换最漂亮的衣服，他们要一起去幼儿园。 　　

我找到园长，请求她让我的孩子们在一起。因为按照新新的年龄应该上大班，可他的智力水平还不如小班的孩子。当看到我的女儿们一边一个拉着儿子的手，并挥手和我再见的时候。我相信这个决定是对的，爱会为我们创造更多的奇迹。 　　
每 天从幼儿园回来，阳阳和月月都帮助新新复习一天学过的东西，而且不许我插手。我的女儿们是班里最出色的孩子，学什么都特别快，而且记得牢。我知道那是因为 她们要教哥哥，所以格外用心去学习。从没看过比她们还有耐心的孩子，轮流一遍又一遍教着笨拙的新新，一个单词往往要重复好多好多遍，甚至梦里还在喃喃。每 次新新学会了，她们就会欢呼起来，然后学着幼儿园老师的样子翘起大拇指说，哥哥你好棒，哥哥你真棒！而我的儿子，就看着妹妹，傻傻憨憨地笑着。 　　
老师要求每个孩子学习写自己的名字，这对新新来讲简直是不可能的事情。可一个月后的一天，女儿们兴奋地拉着儿子跑来告诉我，哥哥会写自己的名字了.
我将信将疑地看着儿子在纸上歪歪扭扭地写下两个大大的'新'字，尤其敖看到他们练习的本子，我小小的女儿们，竟然知道把哥哥的名字拆成笔划来教，好几个本子写着他们循序渐进的过程，我再一次被女儿们的耐心折服得泪流满面。 　　
一天，我去接他们。走到教室门口，听到有个孩子喊着，你们的哥哥是个傻孩子！我一惊，连忙走进去。我示意正要阻止的老师，决定让孩子们自己去面对。只见阳阳憋红了小脸对那个孩子说，我的哥哥不是傻孩子，他是天使，他丢了翅膀，来到我们家，变成一个世界上最好的哥哥，他只不过还没习惯人间的生活。 孩子们发出'哇'的惊叹声，你们的哥哥竟然是天使哎！老师含着眼泪搂过阳阳，对孩子们说，新新是我们班的天使，他会爱我们每个小朋友，还教会我们如何去爱 别人。 回家的路上，我的心被女儿编织的故事激荡着。我问她们为什么那么爱哥哥，她们一起回答，因为没有哥哥就没有我们啊!忽地泪又盈满我的眼，原来她们已经牢牢 记住了我的话，那么小，就学会了爱和感恩。他们是上天赐给彼此的天使，也是上天送给我最珍贵的礼物。因为他们，我才知道，做妈妈是那么值得骄傲和幸福



copy from jessey.... T_T

fall in love wit it!!

i wan tat Bible!!i love it so much!!but...it is RM147.90!!so expensive!hope tat der is someone can sponsor me half price of tat amount...T_T

anyway...i plan to buy it next month...I MUST BUY!!

I FALL IN LOVE WITH THAT BIBLE ALREADY!!!

四姐妹

唱k的时候

吃蛋糕的时候

还记得这张吗？
这个是在ahgam家BBQ的时候咯！！

这个是我们的晚会的时候。。

姐妹，
谢谢你们在这两年陪我走过的日子。。。
虽然在这两年我们都有对彼此的不满，可是，想到这些日子。。。一起走的日子，一起笑的日子，一起闹的日子。。。还有很多很多一起日子，在怎样不满也已经无所谓了。。。

姐妹，
很想跟你们说。。在没有家人陪的我真的很孤独。。还好老天爷对我也蛮不错，把你们送给我。。。嘻嘻嘻。。。所以说，你们在，我真的很开心！！如果有一天我们真要分离，你们都要记得我们曾经在机器的时候哦！！

I WAN TO TALK!!!

im so blur now!!suddenly think many thing...many thing pass by my memory...i think a lot bout him...this few day,i really tot i already forget bout him..but every time i know something bout him,i will think a lot bout him...ermmm~how to say leh~it just like think something "why not me?"

people!!
i really don like ppl giving me command lar~~i really don like it!!some more i don like ppl force me and ask me so many question after say no to something they ask...coz i know wat im doing...don ask why or give me any suggestion...coz my answer still no!!coz i wan to have my own time for myself...i wan to have time to be ALONE..am i clear now?pls take note ya?coz im tired dy...=p

people!!
hosnestly i really really jeolous and don wan to 输了！！in everything i do!!

sorie ya!!i very stress now!!don hurt by my word oo~

tired!!

wanna to have a nice time to rest...
juz for rest...

很想~~

我很想时间能停在这一秒。。
因为我不想离开我妈。。我想再多陪她。。真的很不舍得离开。。。
一点都不想回去。。
不想回去那个给我很多不快乐的地方。。
不想回去那个让我掉泪的地方。。。
不想回去那个一直起我的地方。。。
更不想回去那个是不是就是我的错的地方。。。
也更不想回去那个一直都被骗的地方。。。

救我啊~~~！！！！！
我真的不想回去！！我想留下！！
我认输了好不好！！

爸！！
告诉我！！我该怎么办？
如果那里有像你们那样疼我的人，不知道该有多好呢~
现在突然很不想长大了。。。

why?

why all this happen?
i tot all this can stop!!why kl ordy happen and when i come back to hometown,it happen again...
again and again this thg happen...im wondering when it going to stop!!
im wondering why must my bf or the guy tat i fall of couple wit my best friend?
im wondering who going to be my husband second wife?!

what i wan is peace!!i don like all this happen...guyz!!pls!!

im home now!!

yuuuhhhhooooooooo!!!!!!
so happy can be home now...
cause here got my sweet sweet mom,sweet sweet sis,sweet sweet little bro..but my big is not here...he still working at brunei and his coming back next week

errrmmm~
wat am i going to do today leh?
going out?errrmmm...nope!!i don wan!!
watch drama?errrmmmm...nope!!boring~haiz!!
wat to do leh?
hehehehe...nvm lar...
later only i take pic to up date here lar.....
huhuuuhuhuhuhuhuhu....

pity sis....
why u say im pretty leh?u too ma...we r same de lar...only u think too much...who say i don hav pimple?got lar!!u buta ar...=p

to conitnue~

story...

很闷又无聊！！
所以我就开始玩化妆luuuu~
哈哈哈哈哈哈！！

不错嘛！！
没化妆还是一样美！！
哈哈哈！！

walau eh~
化妆都要那么多膜样！！

xiao!!
画不完的妆！！
=p

画好了！！
很美把！！哈哈哈

Walau~sexy man!!
我也太有自信了吧！！
哈哈哈！！

b4 going to Desa Water Park...

will be continue to post the other pic at the coming blog...

read it!!(copy from cla)

What a woman wants from their husband.
1. AFFECTION
2. CONVERSATION
3. HONESTY and OPENNESS
4. FINANCIAL SUPPORT
5. FAMILY COMMITMENT

What a man wants from their wife.
1. SEXUAL FULFILLMENT
2. RECREATIONAL COMPANIONSHIP
3. ATTRACTIVE SPOUSE
4. DOMESTIC SUPPORT
5. ADMIRATION

i love u...but....

3 weeks i din see u d~
im wondering u really sick or not?
when the moment u say u r sick,i feel like it juz a reason for u too escape from seeing me...
den this week,u din tell me tat u accident,but u write at ur msn saying tat u accident
and it really make me fed up!!coz der sure got sumthg tat happen when i plan to see u...
this few day when i msg u, sure half way only...
HOW U WAN ME TO TRUST U TAT U LOVE ME??!!

u wan me to love u more than i love my ex...but now i love u more than i love my ex d,den how u treat now?is this the way u treat me?or is the time u give back how i treat u b4?u know how hurt izit when the moment u promiz then u cannot make it?u always hope i understand ur situition,but have u understand mine?u think only u sick?im sick too now!!but i cant tell u!!why!!

This is not my 1st time feel like wan too break up with u...few time d...but u save it...but this time im not sure u can save it or not?coz i totally loss trust on u d...i know u will say it depend on me how i think...so,we give time to each other to cool down and think we still need to continue or not...

Suddenly

Suddenly when sitting alone in the room..my head full of him....
Suddenly miss him a lot...
Suddenly fall in love wit him...
Suddenly need him...
Suddenly want him to care...
Suddenly need his hug to warm...

many Suddenly happen so suddenly in my life...
but what can i do?
just enjoy the suddenly lor~

now i really miss melvin!!
how??he very busy lately...
no time choi me...
haiz!!=p

to my little sister that i love,
u must let him go...
u got bttr choice out there...
he just the 1 u like,but not the 1 can love u and give u happiness....
ok?

To miss sweet sweet...
mr.WP u love...
mr. WS u like...
both oso can give u happiness...only thier way r different...
HAHAHA...
choose the best ba!!only u know who is the best for u...

miss c...
u leh?erm~no comment...
wait little blue car ba!!HAHAHA...
or wait until ur white horse came to u...
hehehehe...

miss J...
i have no comment on u for now...HAHAHA...
erm...may b after few day lor...
study smart ba!!don study hard...=p

erm~
Mr. and Mrs. R?
they really kek me pass few day...
u know what they do?
they purposely romances in front me!!
what a hell!!
(happen at working place!!)Dear!!fetch me back!!
HAHAHA...=p

Today~

today the moment i wake up,many picture appear in my mind...many of my pass appear...last time im a happy gurl wit a happy family and happy friend a around me...since i reach 18 years old..every thg go away from me one by one...

this morning,the 1st picture that appear at my mind is my happy moment wit my family...then happy moment with my dad...we go holiday together...the next picture is me and my home town friend...they r sharon, geraldine, geok, susan, and many of them....they bring me a lot of happiness...they always be with me when i need them...then ,now it already end...they cant be with me all the time...coz we have different direaction...so,we juz keep contact wit each other...the following picture is the moment i reach here and the 1st friend i know here...candy and cla...at 1st,i really don like them...coz i donno them...they so r fierce...i scare...HAHAHAHA....now,they r only best friend tat i have here...only them i can trust...

then, i thk back wat happen lately...
i know 1 guy name melvin...we love each other at 1st...but this few day he bz and bz and bz...i donno wat he bz..i msg him,he din reply..i call him,he din answer...am i stupid waiting him here...i donno wat happen to him...i use to cry and cry and cry...i donno wat happen...i tot he will give me happiness...at the end,i din get anythg...i loss my mind now!!im going to be crazy soon due to the pressure tat i face now...i cant cope!!itz making me CRAZY!!

FUNNY!!

story start again bout her...this is her last story appear here...next time mayb only a bit a bit lar~

ok,story start....
i fight wit her in msn today...lucky i din go n see her,if not,sure i shout her dy...hiaz~
actually it start from my breakfast wit miss c, and n miss w....i tell miss c tat miss s and mr. G couple...den sumthg happen lor..(no need to tell lar wat happen,ask me personally)...well well well~~~den many ppl noe bout she couple wit mr.G...she don like!!!den she write at her msn and say some1 bz boby(sure point at me lor!!)den i pun beh song lor...i talk to her at msn n say

"sorie,i know wat u write at ur msn is to me...if u din write those thg,i don thg got anythg will happen lor!!some more im wishing u at my blog and i get this!!if u feel tat u couple wit ah gam is a shame thg...den don couple lor!!EASY!!why wan to blame ppl bz boby?i don thg u break wit yong and couple wit gam is a mistake..love is no mistake...u should noe well den me!!
wishing u wrong,
don wish u oso im wrong!!
why?
wan to tell gam bout this?
i will say the same thg to him too~
don cry wit my word...
juz pray i die faster and don see me anymore tomoro
is tat ok for u?"

tat is wat i tell her 1st...
den we start fight like small kid!!
below here is wat we fight...HAHAHA

5/5/2009		6:23:52 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		sorry lo
5/5/2009		6:24:03 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		i wound cry
5/5/2009		6:24:20 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		bcos i oledy b patient so long time oledy
5/5/2009		6:24:34 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		i noe say anything
5/5/2009		6:25:03 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		but i just supries y u all people so ge po wan 2 guan other people d shi
5/5/2009		6:25:08 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		sorry lo
5/5/2009		6:25:44 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		my family no quan li guan me dan ran no people wil quan li guan me
5/5/2009		6:25:46 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		n
5/5/2009		6:25:52 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		i just wan 2 say is
5/5/2009		6:26:28 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		no need 2 ask some body about my thing
5/5/2009		6:26:51 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		n dun b suppriese i wan break wif who n wam couple wif who
5/5/2009		6:27:12 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		shi ni men mei shi zhao shi zuo
5/5/2009		6:27:35 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		wo xiang gen shui yi 7 xiang gen shui fen shi wo zi ji de shi
5/5/2009		6:27:46 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		wo tao yan zhe yang de ni men
5/5/2009		6:28:13 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		zhe shi wo de sheng huo wei she me ni men yao na yang
5/5/2009		6:28:27 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		xian zai shi shui yi zhi bu ken fan guo shui
5/5/2009		6:28:38 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		bu yao ba zi ji zhuan de na me ke lian
5/5/2009		6:28:52 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		huo shi zhuan de zi ji yi dian cuo dou mei
5/5/2009		6:29:08 PM		su su@wenny		๑◕‿◕๑ pRinc3Ss with hAppinesS๑◕‿◕๑		ba suo u de cuo dou kan dao bie ren

funny right?
erm~sorie if cant post nicely...
tatz all...

talk at next blog...bye~

ｗｅｉｒｄ ｌａｒ ｍｙ ｗｏｒｄ．．．

ＨＡＨＡＨＡ．．．ｉ　ｄｏｎｎｏ　ｗａｔ　ｉ　ｐｒｅｓｓ？
ａｎｙｗａｙ，ｉ　ｊｕｚ　ｗａｎ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ　ｓｏｒｒｙ　ｔａｔ　ｐｉｃ　ｂｅｌｏｗ　ｃａｎｔ　ｐｏｓｔ　ｎｉｃｅｌｙ　ｄｕｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｏｍｅ　ｔｅｃｈｎｉｑｅｃａｌ　ｐｒｏｂｌｅｍ．．．ＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡ

ｍｕｓｔ　ｆｅｅｌ　ｗｅｉｒｄ　ｗｈｙ　ｉ　ｓｔａｒｔ　ｍｙ　ｂｌｏｇ　ｈｅｒｅ　ａｇａｉｎ　ｒｉｔｅ？ｃｏｚ　ｉ　ｆｏｒｇｅｔ　ｍｙ　ｎｅｗ　ｂｌｏｇ　ｐａｓｓｗｏｒｄ．．．ＨＡＨＡＨＡ．．．

ｓｉｎｃｅ　ｐａｓｓ　ｆｅｗ　ｄａｙ　ｉｍ　ｎｏｔ　ｔａｔ　ｈａｐｐｙ．．．ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｓｔａｒｔ　ｍｙ　ｓｔｏｒｙ　ｈｅｒｅ．．．

ｉ　ｇｏｔ　ａ　ｂｅｓｔ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄ　ａｔ　ｍｙ　ｈｏｍｅ　ｔｏｗｎ，ｋｎｏｗ　ａｓ　ｍｉｓｓ　Ｇ．．．ｉ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｈｅｒ　ｓｏ　ｍｕｃｈ！！ｔｈｉｓ　ｆｅｗ　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ｉ　ｌｏｓｓ　ｃｏｎｔａｃｔ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｈｅｒ．．．ｔｈｅｎ　ｓｕｄｄｅｎｌｙ　ｌａｓｔ　ｎｉｔｅ　ｉ　ｓａｗ　ｈｅｒ　ｏｎ９　ａｎｄ　ｍａｋｅ　ｍｅ　ｓｏ　ｈａｐｐｙ！！ｗｈｏｓｅ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｈａｐｐｉｎｅｓｓ　ｅｎｄ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｅｗ　ｓｅｃｏｎｄ．．ｃｏｚ　ｓｈｅ　ｔｅｌｌ　ｍｅ　ｔａｔ　ｎｏｗ　ｓｈｅ＇ｓ　ａ　ｄｒｕｇ　ａｄｄｉｃｔ！！ｉｍ　ｓａｄ！！ｉ　ｃａｎｔ　ｓｔｏｐ　ｍｙ　ｔｅａｒ　ｆｒｏｍ　ｄｒｏｐｉｎｇ　ｄｏｗｎ．．．ｉ　ｔｏｔ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｆｅｗ　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ｃａｎｔ　ｃｏｎｔａｃｔ　ｈｅｒ　ｂｃｏｚ　ｓｈｅ＇ｓ　ｈａｐｐｙ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｈｅｒ　ｌｉｆｅ　ｎｏｗ．．．ｉ　ｐｌａｎ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ　ｂａｃｋ　ａｎｄ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｈｅｒ．．．ｗｈｏｓｅ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｓｈｅ＇ｓ　ｓｔｒｅｓｓ　ａｎｄ　ｂｃｏｍｅ　ａ　ｄｒｕｇ　ａｄｄｉｃｔ　ｎｏｗ．．．ｔｈｉｓ　ｓｔｏｒｙ　ｊｕｚ　ｅｎｄ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｉｓ．．ａｎｄ　ｓｈｅ　ｏｆｆ９　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｓｈｅ　ｔｏｌｄ　ｍｅ　ｔａｔ．．．

ｎｅｘｔ　ｓｔｏｒｙ，ｂｏｕｔ　ｍｙ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄ　ｈｅｒｅ．．．ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ａ　ｓｅｎｉｏｒ　ｋｎｏｗ　ａｓ　ｍｉｓｓ　Ｊ　ｒｅｃｅｎｔｌｙ　ｇｅｔ　ｓｉｃｋ　ｄｙ．．．ｉ　ｔｒｙ　ｔｏ　ｍｓｎ　ｈｅｒ，ｂｕｔ　ｓｈｅ＇ｓ　ａｗａｙ．．．ｈｏｐｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｅｅ　ｈｅｒ　ｓｏｏｎ．．．ｉ　ｐｌａｎ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ　ａｎｄ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｈｅｒ，ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｓｃａｒｅ　ｄｉｓｔｕｒｂ　ｈｅｒ．．．ｃｏｚ　ｓｈｅ＇ｓ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｎａｌ　ｅｘａｍ　ｓｏｏｎ．．．ｍｉｓｓ　Ｊ，ｈｏｐｅ　ｕ　ｇｅｔ　ｗｅｌｌ　ｓｏｏｎ．．．

ＨＥＲＥ！！ａ　ｓｈｏｒｔ　ｓｔｏｒｙ　ｔｏｏ．．．ｂｏｕｔ　ｍｉｓｓ　Ｓ　ａｎｄ　ｍｒ．Ｇ．．．ｔｈｅｙ　ａｒｅ　ｃｏｕｐｌｅ　ｎｏｗ！！ｔｈｅｙ　ａｒｅ　ｃｏｕｐｌｅ　ｄｕｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｏｍｅ　ｒｅａｓｏｎ．．．（ＨＡＨＡＨＡ)．．．ｊｕｚ　ａ　ｊｏｋｅ！！ｏｒ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｃｏｕｐｌｅ　ｒｅｌａｔｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｌａ　ｂｌａ　ｂｌａ．．．ＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡ．．．ｓｏｒｒｙ　ｍｉｓｓ　Ｓ，ｉ　ｐｒａｃｔｉｃｅ　ｍｙ　ｎｕｒｓｉｎｇ　ｄｉａｇｎｏｓｉｓ　ｈｅｒｅ．．．ＨＡＨＡＨＡ．．．ｄｏｎ　ｍｉｎｄ　ｙａ！ｌａｔｅｒ　ｍｒ．Ｇ　ｄｏｎ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｏｏ～ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｉｍ　ｈａｐｐｙ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｎｅｗｓ　ｔｏｏ．．．ｃｏｚ　ｉｔ　ｈａｐｐｅｎ　ｔｏｏ　ｆａｓｔ．．．ｔｈｅｙ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｅａｃｈ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　ｏｎｌｙ　１　ｍｏｎｔｈ．．．ａｎｄ　ｓｈｅ　ｇｏｔ　ｂｆ　１　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ａｇｏ　ａｎｄ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｈｅｒ　ｂｆ　ｓｏ　ｍｕｃｈ　１　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ａｇｏ．．．ａｎｄ　ｔａｔ　ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇ　ｊｕｚ　ｌｏｓｓ　ｉ　ａ　ｍｏｎｔｈ．．．ｗａｈ～ａｍａｚｉｎｇ！！ｗｅｌｌ～ｎｏｗ　ｔｈｅｙ　ａｒｅ　ｃｏｕｐｌｅ　ｄｙ．．．ｉ　ｃａｎｔ　ｄｏ　ａｎｙｔｈｉｎｇ．．．ｎｏｗ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｋｎｏｗ　ａｓ　ｍｒ．　ａｎｄ　ｍｒｓ．　Ｒ．．．（ｈａｈａｈａｈａｈａ）ｄｏｎ　ｗｏｒｒｙ．．．ｉｔ　ｄｏｅｓｎ＇ｔ　ｍｅａｎ　ａｎｙｔｈｇ．．．＝）ｍｉｓｓ　Ｓ．．ｏｐｐｓｓ！！ｓｏｒｉｅ．．ｍｒｓ．Ｒ．．．ｄｏｎ　ｇｅｔ　ｍａｄ　ｉｆ　ｕ　ｒｅａｄ　ｍｙ　ｂｌｏｇ．．．ｅｒｍ～ａｎｄ　ｍｒｓ．Ｒ　ｇａｎｇ．ｄｏｎ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｓｏ　ｍｕｃｈ．．．ｉ　ｄｉｎ　ｍｅａｎ　ａｎｙｔｈｇ．．．

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haiz~talking again

today talk wit ms P....
she tell me tat miss S got read my blog and miss S get hurt when she read...
coz miss S tot tat i forget the pass,but actually i don...anyway..this story oredi become history...and miss S now already happy like b4...she's happy with her life dy...(closer file dy oo~don mention dis kes anymore)

now...
my new life with mr.M...he's a nice guy...he treat me like princess...give me wat i want...sound great rite?but it juz begin...donno wat will happen after few month...hope it wont end up like ah xiang...
hope this guy really can give me happiness lor...and help me to forget them(gam and the gang)...

To all my reader,
i will end up my blog here...and wont continue this blog le...coz i will continue my gosip at another new acc blog...HAHAHA...juz kidding....coz new life den new blog lor...hahaha...
i will let u all know when time come right...

累了。。

很想现在就离开这世界。。。因为太累了
最近太多事发生了。。。我已经被打败了。。我输了。。

Story begin from last night...i donno wat happen...i juz write wat i like in this blog...den not longer after that,doreen sudden open my door and ask wat did i tell su...den she ask again,did i go and find her?
FUNNY!!the whole day i din move from my room...how i go and find her and talk to her...?she's not happy nthg to do with me ok?i don like her and hate them also nthg to do with them lor...why want to say i say something again?why blame me back?i got my right not to friend with who,ok??!!
every time su sad or cry,gam they all will 心痛...then start to blame on me!!i hate dis!!
Just like last night,gam and xiang suddenly come and ask me,candy,wy,doreen and their lovely su go down and have a nice talk...
when i go down,su face like beh song me dy...+ gam also lor ofcoz...see!!everytime that girl got problem,she will tell that guy...then that guy start lor...like last night,i donno what did that girl complain to that guy...suddenly wan to talk...like shit!!ask me go down den only ask me wat i wan?!tat call nice talk meh?+ su de face like wat!!tat wan call nice talk meh?i haven talk,see her face already bomb!!they tot they only know how to beh song meh??i also beh song lor!!
donno why she got so many problem since she know gam they all...she tot only her din sleep meh?all of us also din sleep lor!!juz bcoz of her pearl tear!!
sien ar!!she tot every time she cry,everything will statle is it??this time more worst lor!!why cant she juz shut up??i think if she shut up no one will say her 哑巴lor~!see wat good job has she do now~

some time really want to know what kind of ppl they r!!
fine!!i know myself enough!!tired to be their friend!!so fan!!

Last night

又心软了。。。

i saw her msn msg that show her tension...
i can't make like don't care...i want to care...but i don dare to do so~
im wondering what happen to her?
haiz~don't no why i want to care so much bout her??
she never care anything bout me if i din go to her...
so for what i care so much??
that'z why my close friend always say im too kind!!
im wish that im not too kind some time... haiz~

GOD teach me WHAT TO DO ?

talking and talking and talking bout this gosip again~

This few day,my feeling is so down...can say i start stress again...coz i stop contact with gam they all already...i plan not to talk with her also...coz every time when i saw her,my heart really pain...just like today,suddently saw her using two phone again...my sense strongly tell me tat the number tat she using is giving by gam or the other two(xiang or sien)..anyway,juz guest...


Another story,since she know gam they all,she is very happy and she tell us that gam they all are just like her kampung friend and without realise it,she take away those guy friend from me...and now,only she's happy alone with them...(but i thk not her only,still got another)so now she's getting closer to them...when she getting closer to them,she bcome more often quarrel with her boy friend...bcoz her boy friend don't like her mix wit gam they all...but she's stubborn...she like to be friend with gam they all...bcoz they make her happy...now what i heard lately is her boy friend got limitition to let her like this...he migth breakup with her one day,if she still continue like that...wahh!!this must be a good news to gam and the geng...bcoz they are waiting this second...this is the msg that i saw on someone phone...pity her boy friend...she never know how her boy friend feel..her boy friend got mention that,what is her feeling if he going out with girl that she don't like...i think this question should ask her,then only she know what's going on arround...

Today got one girl come to me and tell me that she saw her msn msg that talking something like"he's so bad and not good!!"...i think she's talking bout her boy friend...haiz~still want to blame boy friend!!in this case,i din't ask anyone to tell me anything,but the news come to me itself...

And now a day,she going out with gam and xiang every night(maybe some time got sien also lar~)...ofcoz including tonight...but,does she know how i feel when she going out with them?no right?coz she never have this kind of feeling and she haven go throught this yet!!SHE NEVER AND SHE WON'T CARE HOW I FEEL AND OTHERS FEEL(her boy friend)!!WHAT SHE KNOW NOW IS AS LONG SHE HAPPY THEN IT ENOUGH!!in her mind konsep,she don't care so much,as long it not her problem...and now,no one dare to make her unhappy,coz gam they all are very SAYANG her...last time when i was their gan mei mei,they never treat me like that...(can say im jealous now)well~gan mei mei only ma~want to espect what oo??she's princess and every thing to them(gam and the gang)...that'z why treat her very good lor...

sien!!feel like hell when talking bout her!!

i talking again!!

pass few day i gaduh wit my ah gor and my best fren...the case start from i saw them out but they lie to me tat they din go out...then i beh song lor~at tat night,ah gor call me...he sound like beh song i know he go out wit my fren...he shout at me...1st time leh~becoz of her he shout at me...so sad lor~i cry lor tat night...but i din blame him,coz he drank that night...who know my fren stupid go and listen to him when he is drank...my ah gor tell her tat i ugut him if he go find her again,i will make big issue...sad lor~i never say tat...i noe this story oso from other ppl...they make me like bodoh...i tot she don wan talk wit me coz i xiao qi...who know behind got diferrent again...they tot im happy meh?im not lor~until today still hurt leh!!ah gor ask me again juz now,is tat reli his fault wor~if wasn't him then is my fault lar?wan blame me back ar?i won say sorie de lor~coz not my fault...my fren till today still belive start from me...(i think lar~)haiz!!ppl donno story sure say is my fault lor...(like her) =p

today cla help me colour my hair...thankz cla!!luv u!!huhuhuhuu

12 Ways To Know That You Love Someone

TWELVE:
You talk with him/her late at night and when you go to bed you still think of him/her.

ELEVEN:
You walk really slowly when you are with him/her.

TEN:
You don't feel Ok when he/she is far away.

NINE:
You smile when you hear his/her voice.

EIGHT:
When you look at him/her,you do not see other people around you.You see only him/her.

SIX:
He/She is everything you want to think.

FIVE:
You realise that you smile every time you look at him/her.

FOUR:
You would do anything to see him/her.

THREE:
While you have been reading this, there was a person in your mind all the time.

TWO:
You've been so busy thinking of that person that you didn't notice that number SEVEN is missing.

ONE:
You are going to check above if that's true and now you are silently laughing to yourself.

NOW MAKE A WISH! YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WANT THE MOST.......

我要诉苦！！

我又听到他的消息，他就快要有女友了。
眼泪也不知道为什么又掉了！！
不知道我为什么还不死心！！知道后，心里还是那么难过！！

真的很讨厌那个垃圾！！为什么是他伤我的心？？！！
可是想回去，也是一件好事！！
因为他，我变了！！

4月08年的时候
难看吧？哈哈哈哈哈！！

现在的我是不是可爱多了？
HAHAHAHA
sorie o~我就是那么有自信！！

姐妹！！
对不起！！我心里还有他！！
我也很想把这个垃圾给忘掉。。
可是我忘不掉~
我真的还很爱他。。
但是你们放心吧！！我不会回到他身边的。。


加油！！

3 月9日09年在云顶的回忆

这是还没进snowworld之前
也是我开始又为他掉泪的时候

很想把自己麻醉
可惜无效

只能看着他的背影对着我笑
心里面的我很不好过
可惜他看不到！！

这是我们还没进赌场的时候
这里的开始不开心了

to be continue....

情人节

情人节！！让我很难过，很想要有你陪。。。什么都不要，只愿你看到我对你的痴情。。。

不真的爱我~

你和我就算了吗 别用沉默代替回答
陌生的让我害怕 心像被针扎了一下

总是不是那句话 我想你是故意装傻
不是不懂得表达 还在等什么说清楚吧

我想你不是真的爱我 习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂 为什么真心伤得特别重

我想你不真的爱我 当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择 我也可以给你自由

终于明白那句话 爱能让人一夜长大
不成熟的感情啊 让我变得小心害怕

我和你就算了吧 不想再为爱而挣扎
爱情诺没有火花 至少了解后懂得放下

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

ong ying ying

You Are Responsible and Faithful

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start

很突然~

很突然在这一刻我很想念他。。。
但是他就是不会懂我这一颗想念他的心。。。
如果再一次的给我选择，我会选择不要跟你开始。。因为跟你开始的我已经跟你结束了，所以现在的我很不好过。。。很想快点把你从我的记忆里都洗干净！！

最近感觉很倒霉，因为发生在我身上的事情都很不顺。。。
好像有些人，开心就跟会问候我，不开心就给我脸色看。。
最近的他们也自私了，当我问问题的时候，他们就说“不懂”。。
就好像他，喜欢的时候，我就是他的宝。现在不喜欢了，我就是废纸。。
因为这样，让我更不好过！！

im not in the good mood!!

since he go away...i nvr happy like b4 anymore...i have my best to be happy like b4,but i cant!!
people around me only know im stupid enough to love someone that hurt me like this...they only know asking me to forget bout him,but never try to stay at my stituation...the way they say also like they hav go through my day b4...honestly,my feeling now have no second people understand!!coz they r not me!!now i have no one to talk with bout my feeling everyday...coz everytime i want to talk,i sure will be scold!!u know why?coz they r not me...they dont want me to think so much...they want me to live happy without him...they dont want me to remember bout him anymore...i know that!!im not stupid...i know!!i juz want someone listen to me...coz im hurt now...i need to talk...need someone listen to me..only that!!at this moment,i suddently miss my family..especially my pass away father...hope he can listen to me now~

today i msg him,tot he wont reply my msg...who noe he reply,im so happy!!but he juz reply once!!so sad!!